Madelaine McMasters

LaskyaClaren wrote: Madelaine McMasters wrote: LaskyaClaren wrote: your perception makes me what I seem to you. Your perception also makes you what you seem to you. Yeah, but that just makes me one more reader and interpreter of myself. What if you're a better reader than I am, and I've just completely missed the important bits of the story? What's a better reader? Wouldn't that depend on your goals (if you knew them)? We've probably all had the experience of knowing someone who we thought read us better than we did, but didn't think they could read us at all. At any moment, I could make a random observation about you that gives you insight. Don't give me credit for that. I think this is why therapists often say "just talking about things helps". If everybody reads you differently than you read yourself, you might have to allow for the possibility you're illiterate. Now the question is, who are you unable to read, yourself or them? If you want an intractible theory, you don't need to include everything. Two people is enough.

LaskyaClaren wrote: Madelaine McMasters wrote: I've no idea what Thandie is talking about, but I could listen to her all day... There may well be an authentic self. That it's difficult to see doesn't mean it's not there. Throw more experiences at it, you might glimpse its outline. Over-thinking is a misnomer. Under-doing is the problem. I hesitate to criticize Thandie's view because her experiences have been so very different from mine. I've really been fortunate that I've seldom found my "selves" rejected. I've been surrounded by love and acceptance all of my life. But maybe that makes self-critique all the more important? I don't think I believe in "oneness." I'd love to, and maybe for some it is a necessary belief, but mostly I think, despite the fact that I have been accepted and supported, that we are always groping rather blindly to connect, and that the words we use are both the only means we have to do so, and at the same time the biggest impediment to success. And if there is, under all of that, an "authentic self," I think it is rather like God or "The Theory of Everything": way too complicated to ever more than vaguely comprehend. I do like your point about doing, though. I've also led a charmed life. As a loner, I don't often get close enough for the kind of rejection that would deeply hurt me. When it happens, I work to understand why, but probably don't make significant changes. I just get better at avoiding future incidents. But, I have felt my otherness since I was quite young. That might be why I'm a loner. I'm an observer by nature. Now and then I'll catch "myself" doing something curious and I'll try to grab hold of it for examination. And it's then that I discover that I'm more like other people than I'd believed, or they're more like me. I see a "oneness" in the sense that I'm a little monkey (my "rational", conscious self) riding a tiger (my "irrational" subconscious selves) crafting stories to explain the paths I take, as if I'd chosen them "all by myself!" when I have only a vague comprehension of what's carrying me around. From what I have seen, I think there's more commonality in the tigers than in the monkeys. My monkey is a loner, my tiger isn't. This is how a loner ends up writing walls-of-text. Sometimes I will throw myself into a new and potentially uncomfortable experience, hoping to catch that tiger by the tail, if only for a moment. That's interesting.

Hi harliew, Sim crossings have always been a problem in SL. All the information needed to describe you must be handed from one sim to another when you approach a crossing. The faster you go, the less time the servers have to do that. And, the more complex your description, the longer it takes to transfer it. So, you can minimize difficulty by slowing for the crossings, and by simplifying your avatar. Remove any attachments you don't really need. And finally, learn to enjoy the experience... https://www.flickr.com/photos/58030004@N06/5755801005/ ;-).

LaskyaClaren wrote: your perception makes me what I seem to you. Your perception also makes you what you seem to you.

I've no idea what Thandie is talking about, but I could listen to her all day... There may well be an authentic self. That it's difficult to see doesn't mean it's not there. Throw more experiences at it, you might glimpse its outline. Over-thinking is a misnomer. Under-doing is the problem.

Good morning, Hippie. I got fairly close to China during my dig, but then remembered that they eat dogs. So, I turned south and popped out in Australia, where I made a friend... Happy Monday, Kids!!! Don't waste it, it's the last one this week.

Hi Charli, As Jean warns, don't trust the "Gaming" moniker. I've also seen "Gaming" laptops with integrated graphics that would probably collapse under the weight of all but the simplest video games. Here's a searchable table of graphics system benchmark data. http://www.videocardbenchmark.net/gpu_list.php The benchmark tests are only a crude indicator of SL performance (because they are not SL), but they're better than nothing. The 720m scores 568. I think current Intel i5 processors have HD 4000 series graphics hardware, so they'd score in the same vicinity. The NVIDIA website hardware page shows all currently shipping graphics chips... http://www.geforce.com/hardware Some of the entries will list shipping notebook computers carrying those chips. it's a hit or miss way to find one, but if you open each chip's page, you may find links to computers carrying the chip. Here's an example page for the GT650M (which scores 1292). http://www.geforce.com/hardware/notebook-gpus/geforce-gt-650m At this moment, NVIDIA's website gets hung "...downloading data..." when I try to see the list of computers. Maybe that'll fix itself later. Happy hunting!

It's a curious thing to ask others who you should be. Let's wonder for a moment if this is an aspect of your character that survived your amnesia. Was the original you a construction designed to please others? I'd think long and hard before trying that again. You've been given a rare opportunity to create yourself anew. Rather than submit to design by committee, look within for a glowing ember you can fan. But don't do that until I can create an alt named ember.

Ceka Cianci wrote: Madelaine McMasters wrote: Ceka Cianci wrote: My first year was my best year by far,for sure hehehe I think this is true for anything I've ever done in my life. I'm learning to slow down and enjoy the ride more nowadays.. I used to rush in and try to learn so many things very fast,then time just passes by. It's much better not being in such a hurry to get to the end of things now hehehe I'm slowing down as well, but I still think I should try something new every... two years? And I don't often get to the end of things. It's usually the case that, once the initial rush subsides, I move on. There are exceptions.

I just shared an ice-cream cone with the neighbor's dog, who came over and scratched at my door because the neighbors didn't know she'd wandered away from the kiddie party, and locked her out. The li'l darling could have been eaten by the neighborhood coyotes. Now I'm going to go to bed one half ice-cream cone short of a bedtime snack. But that's okay. I got to rub some tummy. Who wouldn't go to bed smiling after that. ;-).

I'm glad Nefertiti was able to make the connection for you, Jinny. My best wishes to you, your friend and everyone involved.

Nefertiti Nefarious wrote: CD delivered Nefertiti, you're giving the Nefarious a bad name. Well done.

Watch it, Kidd!

Ceka Cianci wrote: My first year was my best year by far,for sure hehehe I think this is true for anything I've ever done in my life.

Tari Landar wrote: What I like about sl.... Nearly everything..yes, I'm being serious. What I dislike about sl... There are lots of little things, mostly, they are minor annoyances and have little to nothing to do with sl itself, but rather..LL. So those things don't count. The things that I dislike the most, also have nothing to do with sl itself, but rather, its residents. So..really, there's very little I dislike about sl itself. Now if you asked me to break down what it is I dislike about LL or the residents of SL, I could say this.. LL-their inability to listen is the root of all their evil, plain and simple, this alone, causes every little thing I do dislike about them The residents-the inability to undertand that their sl, is not my sl, and my sl, is not their sl...I believe this is the root of nearly all of the problems caused by sl residents. The only other thing I'd say I dislike, revolves around the folks who find negativity everywhere they look and fail to realize that the beholder is most likely the problem, not the environment or others in that environment. This sorta boils down to... I love the World, it's the people in it that drive me nuts. That works for me! ;-).

Ado-ration (n): a fixed amount of foolish or unnecessary talk, trouble or activity given to one person for one day.

Yep, that's exactly how it works, Lindal. But, the decision to export LL's marketing to Google was a deliberate.

11. Lack of adoration

That gal needs to get a life! (Don't you dare go looking at my post count).

Janelle Darkstone wrote: ( It's best not to know. ) Ignorance of bliss is bliss?

I retired from a profession in which my mistakes could have injured people or caused others to injure them. So it was pretty damned important that I not make mistakes. Unfortunately, I'm simply not that reliable. For that reason, I surrounded myself with people who were unafraid (which is not the same as happy) to correct me when I was wrong. I also use weasel words because I'm really not certain of anything. But that's part of the Socratic method. Socrates recognized that expressing certainty often backs others into corners and cuts off the transfer of knowledge. Weasel words may be used to convey uncertainty, escape blame, or encourage dialog. I've tried to use them to escape blame. Remember those people I surround myself with? Yeah, they don't let me get away with anything. And I too am embarassed when I screw up, which pretty much guarantees a chronic low level blush. It's not the chilly weather and I don't drink, so there's no other explanation for my rosy glow. Yet, despite that self-awareness, I've been told more than once that I'm... intimidating. There's a limit to how well we can see ourselves. When I finally leave (and we all will), it'll be because the lot of you didn't provide all the attention and adoration I so desperately need. And to prove that you're not adoring me properly, not a single one of you has ever noticed that my little winks have an Anne Francis mole, right where Maddy wears hers in-world. I shall now run off to have a good cry. Don't try to console me, it's too late. ;-).

Hi Nanina, The hanging cursor suggests a pretty low level problem, close to MacOS. Long ago, way before 10.8, I recall having cursor stalls on network issues. Try restarting your network hardware, and if you're not running Google DNS, consider that. Here's Nalates Urriah's compendium of methods to improve your connection to SL... http://blog.nalates.net/2011/10/26/troubleshoot-your-sl-connection/ If nothing there helps, try a clean install of one of your viewers. It's possible some file is corrupted, and doesn't get replaced by a standard install. Here are instructions for doing that... http://community.secondlife.com/t5/English-Knowledge-Base/How-to-uninstall-and-reinstall-Second-Life/ta-p/1375231 Read the note about saving and chat logs if you want to keep those. Read my notes at the bottom of that page for Mac specific details. Firestorm has a feature that allows you to save and restore settings across a clean install. So Firestorm might be the first viewer on which to try that. Good luck!

Hi Cornyflowerz. Part of the misunderstanding may stem from anime characters having childlike proportions. According to Konrad Lorenz's theorized "Kindchenschema", large eyes and forehead in proportion to the head and large heads in proportion to the body suggest juvenility. The anime aware will recognize this as an element of the style, but the rest of us will see a kid because we're wired that way. Every image you linked contains characters that look like children to me. My first introduction to anime was during a month in Japan in 1986, where I saw such characters in the porn comics men were reading on the Shinkansen. I was 16 and impressionable at the time, so I won't judge myself too harshly for having the impression I do. If one attraction of anime is the cognitive dissonance created by the look, it shouldn't be surprising that that dissonance sometimes yields unhappy results. If I were to look as you do, I'd be circumspect in my activities.

Good morning, Hippie! I had so much fun digging holes for trees yesterday I decided to go nuts today... Happy Friday, Kids!!!

Nah, it's not entrapment. It's Hanlon's Razor at work... "Never attribute to malice that which can be explained by incompetence."