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  1. Ой! Я знал, что во всем мире есть великие таланты (и особенно в Second Life), но я не осознавал, что, возможно, я немного устарел в музыкальном плане и что сейчас предпочитают хип-хоп. Хорошо ... Я думаю, что я буду продолжать наслаждаться визуальными удовольствиями, тогда, спасибо Oh! I knew there were great talents around the world (and especially in Second Life), but I didn't realize that maybe I was a little outdated musically 😂and that hip-hop is now preferred. Okay ... I think I will continue to enjoy the visual pleasures, then, thanks! 😉 💜
  2. Привет, Я из Соединенных Штатов. Я бодрствую здесь ночью и рано утром, поэтому, возможно, именно тогда вы, ребята, бодрствуете. Мне очень нравится танцевальная музыка, такая как VNV Nation или Icon Of Coil. Мы называем это кучей вещей, таких как «Темная волна», «Электронная танцевальная музыка» или «Электронная боди-музыка». ... Кто-то сказал мне, что русские очень серьезно относятся к своей танцевальной музыке! Мне было бы очень интересно посетить некоторые места в Second Life, где есть этот тип музыки и культуры. Каждое место, где я бываю, - это в основном английский, поэтому я никогда не исследовал это, но очень хотел бы! Так что, если вы можете помочь, это было бы здорово! Спасибо! ^ Hello, I am from the United States. I am awake during the night time and early morning hours over here, so perhaps that is when you guys are awake. I really like dance music such as VNV Nation or Icon Of Coil. We call it a bunch of things like "Dark Wave," "Electronic Dance Music," or "Electronic Body Music." ...Someone told me Russians take their dance music very seriously! I would be very interested to visit some places in Second Life that feature this type of music and culture. Every place I go is primarily English, so I have never explored outside of that, but would very much like to! So if you can help, that would be great! Thanks!
  3. @Sunbleached OMG! You look *SO* beautiful! That's FANTASTIC!!! I'm so glad I could help! Thank you VERY much for all those fabulous lindens! 😲 I certainly didn't expect that much, but I will definitely enjoy them! 💜💜💜
  4. Okay, challenge accepted! Got a Catya demo. This is as close as I can get. Other than the default numbers you get in a shape (and some of my own stuffs, like muh pointy ears), these are the ones I changed... Try fudging the numbers a bit, and see if you can get it better ...If you really like it, feel free to toss some loose L$ my way. Head: Head Size: 50 Head Stretch: 32 Head Shape: 69 Egg Head: 72 Head Length: 40 Face Shear: 50 Forehead Angle: 24 Brow Size: 26 Upper Cheeks: 43 Lower Cheeks: 36 Cheek Bones: 45 Nose: Nose Size: 16 Nose Width: 30 Nostril Width: 15 Nostril Division: 45 Nose Thickness: 39 Upper Bridge: 41 Lower Bridge: 69 Bridge Width: 35 Nose Tip Angle: 56 Nose Tip Shape: 0 Crooked Nose: 50 Mouth: Lip Width: 32 Lip Fullness: 20 Lip Thickness: 30 Lip Ratio: 55 Mouth Position: 40 Mouth Corner: 32 Lip Cleft Depth: 36 Lip Cleft: 21 Shift Mouth: 50 Chin: Chin Angle: 43 Jaw Shape: 41 Chin Depth: 40 Jaw Angle: 37 Jaw Jut: 49 Jowls: 50 Chin Cleft: 100 (didn't seem to do anything) Upper Chin Cleft: 100 (also didn't seem to do anything) Chin-Neck: 0
  5. I dunno how I managed to make my stuff not quotable, or come up with weird useless blocks of non-text, LOL! Fun, fun! Happy belated birthday! Did you do anything fun to celebrate? Or at least get some freebies? I like to go to restaurants that have those! *giggles* Well, I tend to do the same when it comes to ppl sometimes... But fortunately I'm a bit secretly shy and they don't have to witness my stupidity first-hand from my end! LMAO. Ohh, interesting! I didn't know Horace actually said Carpe Diem! I thought it was just an infamous saying humans generally came up with, like "don't look a gift horse in the mouth," or something like that (mind you, that has an origin as well, and I didn't think to put two and two together until you referenced the phrase). ...Epicurean. Interesting! I didn't know there was such a thing! I thought there was just Taoism (amongst others that I've been WAY too exposed to). Now I have something else to study! That's great! I love that! Thanks a bunch! Carpe Noctem, to you!
  6. OoOoo, nice to be cool! I love the smell of rain! The mud on the other hand, well, that's another story! LOL We've been having weird weather where I live... It's supposed to be Summer, but yup, it hailed a couple of weeks ago!
  7. Sometimes you can use 2 different hairs to get the style you are looking for, too. I like copy/mod hair. Then I can make a copy of it and edit it to my heart's content. And then eventually get close to the style I desire as well. .:EMO-tions:. is great... they used to have a lot of flexi, but I think they're steering away from that now. My bangs are from a short hairstyle they unfortunately no longer sell. And my longer, flexi hair is also theirs I haven't seen lately either. But I'm still a huge fan of their stuff: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Hells End/134/145/23 D!va may also have what you are looking for: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/CalanDiva/170/90/29 And I've seen whisps at Wasabi too: http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Coraline/128/187/55
  8. Hiya, I hear ya... My laptop is very old too. For now, I am doing things to create inspiration for myself. I will write. I can still do texture stuff in Photoshop. And I can do this while multi-tasking in SL, by playing a L$ earning game. There are a quite few to choose from. Fish Hunt, Lindo, Treasure Quest, and Alienum to name a few. It just depends on what you are in the mood for. When I am lost in the middle of all that, and sometimes social media, I sometimes come up with ideas and inspiration. Also, breedables are quite distracting and fulfilling too. There are many. I seem to favor the Amaretto Horses and PlantPets. Look around and find something you are interested in. Go to an event. Explore a new sim. Take pictures. Share them. Anything, really! These other ppl here have some very lovely ideas too, as well.
  9. I agree. The friends/"surrogates"/substitutes are great, but I really and truly wish the family defined by genetics would yield a more meaningful or validating relationship. ...And so, I am attempting to do this on SL now. ...Well, glad you at least find this thread interesting, Seicher I welcome everyone's feedback and conversation! I can honestly say this is the most social interaction I have had in SL in quite a while and it feels nice! So, thank you! My son is RPed by a really awesome younger chick a few thousand miles away. She openly admits to many alts, and she knows I have a hard time keeping up with all of them (but she's very patient). I found I got a 2-fer with her (or maybe even a 3-fer or a 10-fer, LOL). Not only do I have my son, Eddy, and all his friends... but I also get to talk with her a bit about some of her RL stuff. She's very creative, funny, and amusing, and I ♥ her to pieces! I try to talk with her every/other day whether on SL or FB. Well... I honestly have no other experience to go on but my first SL Mom, who started Skyping with me, I believe, within the first day or so, for like 8 hours sometimes. Therefore, because of that, and the questions the adoption panels one is asked to fill out, I believe Skyping is something that those who are interested in adopting, would be looking for. It's not a necessity. I don't think my son and I have actually Skyped in over a year... but I guess it's nice to know that if you needed to get a hold of me, you could. I guess it's a connection thing. It depends on the person and how connected they want to feel. It would be nice to have a parent who isn't afraid to cross over a bit into RL. Nothing scary like, "Okay, cool, now yer my mum & I'ma move in with you," LOL... More like, "Hey, X, Y, Z happened today, and I'm not sure what to do, what do you think? What would you do?" And yeah, squabbles will probably happen. It's true of any two (or more) ppl that care enough about each other and their own convictions, who are in a relationship of any kind. I guess I was just trying to share what the goal is... and as long as it falls somewhere in the spectrum of that, I'd be happy and hope the other person/ppl would be too. A relationship like what I'm seeking is a living/fluid thing. It's never going to be "perfect," and maybe the only way it would be, is if everyone cared enough about each other and themselves to maybe have some differences - just how we deal with them is what would strengthen the relationship/s. ...It's interesting that you say this too, I do have a place where I talk about how I would try to resolve differences (because the panels do have that question). But then again, you have to think about how to "market yourself" in these kinds of things too, so you can be adopted (so you want to aim for more positive than negative ...although, I tried to be realistic and throw a lot of truth in there too, don't get me wrong). I'm not sure how exactly to fix this so I don't scare prospects off. Never thought I was perfect, and I don't think anyone else has to be either, LOL. I feel for you on the RL family situation, I really do. I'm not sure why meaningful relationships are hard to find on SL ...Maybe a lot of us are scared of what we have to lose, and maybe it also plays a bit on the escape of being anybody and doing anything here. I'm sure that's why a lot of ppl "don't' take this game very seriously" too. I'm glad you found a great friend from here into RL! That's super awesome! And yup, I ramble too, LOL! What's the weather like in your neck of the woods? 😎
  10. Wow... Big space in the quote there ^ Dunno how to edit that when Edit button is not letting me click it, sorry! 😰
  11. I might just explore some German destinations now! Your knowledge of behavior and history is quite impressive for how old your profile says you are (or whenever you last updated it, LOL)! ...I actually never got too much into all of that. The paragraph where I reference what "Goth" was like for me in high school, is pretty much my extent. But yes, I did know that "Gothic" was referred to as architecture back then. And had evolved into referencing music. To which, I'm not so sure which music falls specifically into that category, as it seems very fluid (The Cure? The Smiths? Switchblade Symphony? Rasputina? Type O Negative? Marilyn Manson? Hell, even VNV Nation has dark lyrics but practically made the genre of EDM ...So I think it's more like an interpretive perspective thing?). And now I think it has evolved into things like Steampunk. I also find your philosophical view fascinating as well! I've had a philosophy of religion class that basically boiled everything down to 3 reasons: 1) Do it because God said so, 2) Do it for the greater good, or 3) Do it because it feels good. When I was a practicing Eclectic Witch, I was taught to stay away from "the Left-Handed Path" because whatever energy you put out, comes back to you ("Law of 3" or in other POVs the "Law of Attraction"), therefore I never want to mess with free will or do "negative" things. However, I'm not entirely sure if we are talking about the same Satanism I know of, or something you have eclectically made for your own personal doctrine here. At any rate, without touching the butterfly wings of the common, unspoken taboo of social faux pas (being to: never talk about politics, money, or religion ...at least not publicly, LOL!), you do strike me as someone very interesting that I'd love to at least share coffee with! And yus. You are indeed right regarding your point on being family. And yeah, I do have friends I can trust and rely on, and I'd like to say they can feel the same about me. There are just certain boundaries that you never know whether you can actually cross and risk losing them as friends forever, or if they'd actually like that kind of relationship (you know, where you feel comfy enough to, say, send dumb things like cookies or something to each other in the mail, or whatever). That's why I kinda felt safe looking for a family at all these adoption places, because obviously those ppl might be kinda looking for the eventually same deeper relationship I'm looking for, right? Therefore, there really isn't that much risk of losing someone as a friend in SL, per say, but more like discovering if you actually have a lot of other, more meaningful things in common. ...Everyone who has the type of family relationship you are referencing in SL (where you start off as friends first, and there do seem to be a lot of them), seems really lucky to me. It is my holy grail and unicorn. Because my experience hasn't been quite so awesome... When I first came to SL, my RL friend who no longer signs on, brought me here. I left SL for like 5 years, because I couldn't find what I was looking for. Whether it was too new, not enough ppl, or I'm socially stunted whatever-have-you, I dunno. I didn't think I would come back. But when I returned, I got sucked in. Because a lot of things were different. More social, and awesome graphically. However, the place I found, that I thought I belonged to, and would forever be a part of, played such a horrific and ugly political game that it sent me reeling and spiraling backward as far as friends go (yes, a few friends have "followed" me away from that place, but like I said before, I'm scared of pushing any boundaries to accidentally offend what little friends I have left). And this original place's power ties into other fantasy realms that are similar in nature. So, it feels like whatever I was interested in, I "no longer have a right to enjoy." And I have no idea how to find other places like that first place (many don't have as much traffic, & again, it's like a needle in a haystack). It's overwhelming and I feel defeated on that level. I even asked a make-over place for help, and they were a bit dumbfounded as to how, LOL! ...How I have survived, is by doing my own thing with building, playing L$ earning games, and writing. It's alright, but it's an **explicit-delete** bubble ...Or a vacuum, if you wanna call it that. That may just be why I have a horrible time finding friends that become more like family. It's a conundrum. I seem darned if I do and darned if I don't. And I lack the social know-how to otherwise chance or sacrifice at a cost I'm scared to pay (like maybe things could be worse, you know?). *sigh* And before I close, I want to be clear, my current friends are like family... But they're more like aunts and uncles and regular friends. Nobody really checks in with me every/other day ...And I feel like if I check in with them all the time, I might be "annoying" or "needy," or somehow wind up in a worse emotional spot than that first place left me. So... That's why I don't want to be stuck in this bubble, and am trying anything and everything to branch out here ...hopefully, without ruining what I already have.
  12. Thank you, Orwar, I believe you are right on many counts here, and have said many things I do need to hear. I realize it's only been a short amount of time this thread has been open. I think I was just considering how long I have had inworld panels up (since March, and on & off longer than that). And usually, I have a lot of good luck on the forums. I am grateful for my son, but I do long very much for the same kind of energy I put toward him, to come from a parent to me. I've had tastes of it before, and I miss it dearly. My husband also hardly comes to SL anymore. ...Is the silence and solitude always associated with darkness? I am therefore contradictive, in seeking relationships beyond this? - When I was in high school, there was a group of kids that considered themselves "Goth." You could easily find them, because they usually wore black. Some of them had pretty, fancy, "peacock" make-up or hair colors, while others just stuck to the dramatic black/white theme. No matter what, tho, they always seemed highly talented, intelligent, and friendly/nice. And they were not alone, there were at least 50 of them around at any given time. ...I guess maybe I am wondering where that is in SL. Am I too old for that? Did we miss the mark? Has SL turned so "trendy" that we do not see beyond outward appearance to what ppl really have to offer (as far as positive character aspects)? Maybe I am more trying to be who I really feel I am, in SL, or possibly who I was kept from being, when I could've been my happiest, as a teenager... by being a succubus/dark fae in SL. There's also more detail to it too, I don't necessarily think Lilith actually was the Queen of demons by trying to be equal to a man, I think the ppl who originally wrote that "story" were trying to send a negative warning message to women who would try to be equal. And I embrace my interpretation of this, by being a succubus/dark fae in SL. ...Although, it's intended more for fun, really. I guess it may be contradictive to try and "bust out of the mold" so much, and to do things so differently. ...But if we don't have ppl like that, I guess we would be doomed to be stagnant, boring, die, etc.. All I have wanted for quite some time, is a supportive parent. Someone to bounce ideas off of. Someone to care a little more than a friend will. Someone who may be encouraging, and also someone I could learn things from too. For a while there, I wasn't so sure as to why this was so hard to find. But now I can see that anything worthwhile will take time, as I am possibly looking for a needle in a haystack (SL users -> parent/s -> for a unique -> wife/mother). I just hope they haven't given up on SL completely, and we will one day find each other.
  13. Feeling kinda lonely today. RL sucks. Maybe adoptions are a joke. I'm doomed to be an omega forever and it seems like everything I do doesn't matter. I wish I were dead so I didn't have to endure the nonstop pain of rejection.
  14. Thank you ❤️ I worked really hard on it, tweaking it here and there for a good year or so. ...I realize I have some hectic chaos. I'm kinda tired of it falling under the "creative genius" category or whatever excuse we can label it as. I would sincerely appreciate some structure... The kind a parent could offer, ya know? 😀
  15. LOL, when you read it like that... yes, I can kinda see what you mean. ...And yeah, no, I'm not going to be an adult who goes out of their way to act like a child (as in "immature"), LOL. I do want to be a mature adult child... I mean it more like, I'm not going to RP myself as a child/teenager, I'd like to be an adult who is someone's child. ...Like, I have some wisdom and some autonomy... My life just seems incomplete without the validation of love or a deeper relationship that one would normally get from a parent-child relationship, you know? That's all. 😇
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