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This is another from Playing For Change.. They never cease to amaze me,ever.. They are doing a beautiful version of, All Along The Watch Tower..

The silly things I notice are, there are still some in world that even though all that is stripped away, still find reasons to put themselves above another.. Even though we were all new at one time.. I've watched people progress from new and lost in this world, into someone like that, so many times that I can pretty much spot them out in the early stages nowadays..hehehehe I guess the things that it gets done over is what I find silly.. Like someone being a fury or not having mesh or just being new to the world in general.. I think a lot of people don't really realize just how big this world really is and get caught up in their cliques and thinking most of the world is like them.. I can't claim innocent's to that..I got caught up in it myself early on when people were feeding my ego like it was a free buffet night and the sizzler..hehehe But I feel fortunate that I got humbled pretty quick.. It's easy to get caught up in a clique.. after that and comparing my outside world self to myself inside world self..Yea, I was being a hypocrite pretty hard at first.. I was grateful to be grounded..

I want to share something with you that when I first came across it, had me soaked in tears..It is so full of diversity from the instruments to the people from all around the world that came together and never even left where they were to make it.. For me I was just looking for the song itself from the Stones, but got so much more than I bargained for.. I clicked on it out of curiosity and it became a powerful experience.. The more it went on the more I cried from feeling so inspired and a feeling of hope and direction.. I never really paid that much attention to the words of that song before..But when I first seen and heard this version of it and picked up on their message..It was like a direct connection that was gushing right into my heart and mind that overwhelmed me.. I was 25 years old at the time, fallen out of faith in a religion that I had put so much of myself into, that I had came to grips with, that it had lied to me my whole life and feeling so lost and alone without a belief in the world anymore..Then still trying to pick up the pieces of the worst violent attack of my life a couple years earlier..Then there was just everything else piled on top of that that the world throws at you every day.. I started watching and seen this man on a dock playing his guitar and thought,he was going to do the song.. Then it changed to someone else and it just kept happening and before I knew it I was just overtaken by it and feeling a peace that I needed to feel so badly.. Things and moments come a long and change your life that we never see coming until they hit us.. Some take time to see, but some are like a bolt of lightning in a bottle.. I had been closing things off with my family for a long time before this and getting worse and more cold to them and anyone,even my husband, just as my grandmother had done to us and my grandfather, from the things she experienced in her years she spent in the boarding schools.. I didn't want that to be me and seen I was on her path.. But I turned so hard towards my family afterward this..It was something they had been trying to get me to do for years.. I know this wasn't speaking directly to me, but it did.. Because of them and because of learning from them and from the places I search more about where I came from..That gives me the power over those that feel they have the power over me and us.. I feel fortunate that I can pin point at least one turning point in my life that if it didn't come along..who knows what would be happening right now.. I just wanted to share the moment because it's fortunate that it is something that can be actually shared rather than just spoken.. Also,I immediately donated to them as well and still do..I still cry through this song,because it has power they made it powerful.

I just feel fortunate enough that we had elder support around us that communicated like that trying to pick each other up.. when you are the only ones of your kind surrounded by many different groups, Hate comes from all directions.. We clung to what we could.. I didn't get arrested, but I did get fight tested all the time..So I got pretty good at that.. It helped set the tone when we moved from the inner city to the south.. I didn't learn to appreciate it and realize a lot of things until i was in my early 20's. I just feel fortunate that I took all that in from them and not what the world was trying to make me.. SL was a pretty good help also.. What SL did for me was showed me a place where it seemed like all that went away..it also introduced me to a much bigger world where I could for the first time talk to people and make friends from around the world.. A lot of debunking of things i had learned from my world, happened just in getting to know people from around the world.. I didn't realize just how much propaganda there was in my world.. My Father is the one that really had it much much rougher than us.. He went through much worse and still pulled us out and where we are now..all without my so called mother.. Honestly,I feel she would have held us back.. hehehe

I have a similar one that I can't remember where I heard it,but I heard it when I was younger..It may have been one of my uncles.. When you fail, don't make it about the failure, it's all about the come back.

I'm in the middle of watching this right now and really caught up in it.. It's a long video, I'm at the 30 minute mark myself and can totally relate to a lot of things they are talking about.. Especially when they started going into wealth early on.. I don't know, I just think there are good questions in it and really great answering and conversation.. I just felt like I had to share it here..

The really sad thing is, cops are at the bottom of that totem pole. it gets worse the higher you climb it...

Actually, She's a Alabama girl. I do agree though that people from other countries don't understand the issues here, just like people in our own country don't understand the issues here.. Many look at the U.S. as one huge state when it's 50 of them.. Many people think Africa is a country..hehehe Over in Europe they look at each place as a different country or state..The U.S. never gets looked at as that..it's one big unit to everyone on the outside.. When really each state has it's own laws and more than likely if someone hasn't been to a certain state, then they haven't a clue..let alone they'd need to spend a good amount of time to know the real deal anyways.. Slamming everything into one big basket just saves time for many and is much easier way to define things than really digging in and finding the real troubled spots.. Most any time you hear me talk ,it's about the places I know and my experiences and things I know and have seen or picked up from people i know in the know.. Because you can't really ever go wrong from what you know... I've had people that have never been to Chicago argue with me on what's going on in Chicago.. If I could just have one internet wish,it would be to B*tch slap through the internet in cases like that.. hehehehe Things I don't know or haven't seen with my own eyes, I research the hell out of and look for the most untainted politically motivated free as possible information and then try to double and triple down on other sources to see if things line up.. The main thing I look for is the truth, not for anyone else but myself..Because I'm not raising my children on lies or a means to an end.. I want my children purely educated, not modified.. This is why they have no phones of their own to fill them up with clutter..When they are out of the house and on their own and old enough to buy one themselves, I just hope then we did well enough a job as parents that they can sift through the debris to the truth on their own.. My father said something one time when we were on two week trail ride.. one of the riders with us was looking at a map..This guy was like are you sure we are supossed to go that way? this looks like we are supposed to take this other trail.. He turned to me and said, Do you want to follow the guy with the map or the guy that knows the trail? I started laughing..

heck yea i would.. This one anyways..hehehe YUM!!!

If she hasn't seen him in Conan The Barbarian yet, then this is a must see for her.. He was really good in it.. Plus he acts pretty good in it too..hehehehe Also just have to add an interview.. as well..She will enjoy it.. hehehe

Also, a lot that do take those types of jobs are more than likely doing them because they were doing them in their old country as well.. I'm sure not all but many.. I know we had a bunch in our old company temp service that the new company had gotten rid of..They were working for the temp service and not us.. There were die casters and setup guys and process techs, Quality control and on the production lines.. A lot of good people that i really liked.. They always would joke with me..hehehe I didn't even know they were illegal until we got a letter from the new company.. I was always told they had green cards.. Some of those guys were there for a good while..I would ask, are we ever going to hire any of these guys.. I would always be told, they didn't want to leave the temp service in case something better came along.. They weren't making much less,..I think a dollar less from the hiring rate, which was 15.00 an our for say,starting pay on the production line.. I was sad to see them go..

We have the whole road of just my family and our houses..We've got plenty of food and plenty of guns and packs of really huge Mastiff and Danes running around the property..That's not counting our in house dogs.. If you happen to be in Tennessee when the next Apocalypse happens..just hit me up on here..We'll open the gate for ya.. hehehehe

I couldn't edit my post fast enough..you'll have to look up at it again..hehehehe

Competition is in our nature..It's throughout wild life, even with our siblings at an early age we compete.. Sharing is what gets taught or not.. Have to add a silly thing.. When things are going well in the human race..Do you have a cup of sugar, Sure neighbor..In fact here is 2 cups of sugar.. When Covid-19 strikes.. Get you hands off my toilet paper B*tch!!\o/ hehehehe

That kind of reminded me of this, because even in the 1% you still have sides..It's just human nature to have to have someone to be up against..hehehehe

It's very on par with the media, and social media.. When their clicks start to go down, they start looking for fuel.. Same with politicians.. You just can't trust them or the medias.. where is Mitt Romney after that one day? He's sniffing around just like the media is for his next pandering moment that goes nation wide..

Honestly, I would much rather know who my enemy is than them being able to go more underground than they are.. All controlling speech would do is compress the situation more, not cure it..Might even make it worse and trigger more worse acts.. When, if someone were to say something in public, they may catch more flack from bystanders, which I've experienced first hand.. People are catching enough flack as it is for what they say just with getting their lives ruined.. The worst kind of hate, is the the hidden underground hate or the hate going on behind the back.. If someone say's something to me ,I want to be able to turn and see as clear as if a show light popped over their head.. I'm just gonna add this part since I forgot.. Saying something to me is one thing..But if they touch me, I'll throw down on them making them crap their pants where they stand..In a heart beat.. I kid you not..

I always called SL an escape, Because I never had as much problems in SL as in RL.. For the most part, most of the people in world have been really good.. There were a few times, but nothing really that I couldn't handle or would write home about , to be honest.

There isn't going to be a race war.. The country could never get that many people on the same page that would actually have the nads to pull it off.. There is a lot of gabbers on the net.. All net no nads..hehehehe When the election is over and everyone has what they want or didn't get what they wanted from the results of the election.. Things will be surrounding that and the whole circus starts all over again building up for the 2 year election and then gaining steam for the 4 year,like always.. The media will control the pace and the direction like always. Soon as a story with more steam comes along, this will be yesterdays news and they will be doing what they always do..Acting like they give a crap.. like always.. Americas attention span is short, especially nowadays with LATE BREAKING NEWS!! changing as fast as a Jason Borne Shaky cam fight.. Look, no news got through when Trump went to where ever it was he went to this past weekend.. yet My home town got shot up to hell.. Just like the Honey Badger, Media Don't give a Sh*T.. We think all this steam is getting gained right now.. It's going to be short term results,like always.. Real Change comes from within, and it takes time building our peoples up to be stronger.. If we waited for government to make change, it would never happen..change comes from within by electing the right people and having choices of good candidates..not these recycled from the system used Dinosaurs of the old world that are out of touch and kissing any Butt that will listen to them.. Why in the world would I trust any rich politician on either side to understand what's going on in Chicago's inner city? They wouldn't.. You might have race spats, but there won't be a war.. That's just media and net jabber. Edited to add: Sorry, I kind of went all over the board there, But a lot of stuff just kept popping in my head as I went on.. it happens sometimes.

I always liked the Temptations..

They always lied though.. Even when the Chiricahua finally surrendered, it was with negotiations that they would only be imprisoned for two years.. it ended up being like 42 years. It's called the 42 year lie.

A lot had to do with because they were still in their familiar land.. The reason they used Africans was because they would be disorientated and much easier to train when you are lost and scared and in unfamiliar places.. they knew they were a long way away because of the long ride in ships alone..let alone wouldn't know which direction to go to get back to their home.. In a familiar land you know these things and you always have hope.

One thing that a lot don't know is, They shipped out more natives into slavery out of the country than they had shipped in.. The reason They didn't keep natives as slaves and shipped them out was because they knew they had to put them into a place they didn't know far away, or they would always be trying to escape or fight to get back..This is why slaves were shipped in and natives shipped out..

I blame Nascar..hehehehe