Val, it's my bedtime, so over there in France you'll be fast asleep. Just wanted to say that, what seems awful today changes as time goes by.
I, not that long ago, came within hours of losing a son when he was a young adult. The lad's now stuck with a bag on his tum, but he's married with a lovely daughter. Things do get better.
Be strong val. Especially give your mere and pere your love. They need their daughter, believe me.
More HUGE hugs for my amie.