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  So Hi, I'm Purz-- I carry a shattered heart, wounds that don't close, yet I still believe in fairy tales.
  (I definitely believe in a beautiful girl that sparkles when she walks too.)
  What I'm looking for in a friend/companion is unique beyond comprehension.. Perhaps that's why I haven't been able to make many since the ones I grew up with had passed away.. (overdoses and suicides).
As far as my AV's "persona" goes, shes all me.  I'm straight up with those I talk to.. Yes, I want friends and hopefully a dark-heart one day-- but I'm not one of those people that are okay with just calling it a day with a photo of me without a bit of a background, morose and beautiful at the same time. 
  I did start a group for those that have suffered passed the traditional "depression".. I'm working on it's own location, in the meantime meeting at my house if anyone wants to have movie night that I set up.. I also set up a Skype for us, so yes-- questions about whether or not I'm actually the girl in my photos, don't even ask. I also DJ and host groups for controversial and supportive issues.. It is just me working on all of this but I'm doing the same in real life-- I'm working on a grant for victims of abuse, substance use, ptsd, homeless.. thats to name a few-- I'm just trying really hard to help others, and not many people are helping me back.
I work really hard to help others, and it doesn't discourage me, only make me sad that I'm not being thought of the way I will think of a stranger and help them. I suppose it just hurts a small bit. and yet, I really just try to forget about it because crying is harder.
  Anyway, I'm a Pagan. I've been a Pagan since 13.. now in my late 20s and i'm still gratefully learning.. I admire the light and the darkness beauty of it. It's absolutely lovely, as well as continues to help me find spirit through study. 
  I very little role-play, (other than embellish with my cute Demonic tail and furry now and then) in Second Life because my First Life has become a bit broken and scary that I seek so desperately people that like me for who I truly am, and not what I could never be..
  • I'm so honest that most don't stick around, and I don't want that kind of posse anyway. I want strength, and people who don't cower when faced with the opportunity to stand up for themselves or someone they love.
I'm hoping to settle down at least with a bad-ass crew, even if the one person with the other piece of my heart doesn't exists--
At the least I'd have my coven of ladies.
I love men also, just they always wound up being the people to slam me up in the air or punch me in the face....
Men usually make decent friends though..
 
However, those that give up will never see daylight the way it's suppose to be seen.
I've battled, I've fought, I've won, I've lost.
A bit more about me;
I am a freelance Jill of All Trades; I am well educated with two degrees. I love sophisticated conversation..
I make music, graphic art, write constantly, and an IT and Networking Specialist.
I do my own projects-- whether it be for victims of abuse to tune creation or publication, to fit training, etcétera..
I love helping individuals realize their true potential.
I monitor websites, and absolutely love being a internet DJ.

I'm a Gamer, used to be Pro. Now an Xbox Ambassador--
I wouldn't give up my XB1 for anything.
I love the weirdest *****, and I listen to music that might give you a headache.

I don't like social media too much, but I like to hope there's still a few wonderful people out there.
But being "in" on the Net, you need a few pointless apps.
 
Yep! So!
There's a brief synopsis.
(Don't bother if you're fake or soliciting, I'm a Computer Specialist and can find out easily, please don't waste my time.)
If that didn't scare the ***** out of you by all means,
hit me up!


 

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I like you.  You are like me in the sense that we've been through a ton of sh** but want to reach out to people to help them.  I dont really expect them to help me back though, cause no one ever really has, its always just me getting myself through everything.  But I dont want anyone else to feel like that so I try to help.  I even just recently created a womens center in sl to try and give back and help.  its brand new though, still adding things to it.

I too struggle with depression, anxieties of all sorts, always have had both, dealt with mental and emotional abuse, one guy hit me *once* I made sure it never happened again.

I keep myself to myself for the most part cause most people dont get me and many have strong reactions to me, not sure why.  lol  Im a scorpio rising and I read several times that it comes with that.  The darkness into phoenix over and over and over as a repeating cycle.  

ok babbling into nothingness now.  Nice to see someone who is absolutely themselves and is not afraid to put it out there.  I have a post on here too which says more about me.  anyway just reaching out.  I think we might be kindred in a lot of ways. :)  I think you might be the yin to my yang. :P  Im partnered for a long time now so not looking for that but I am down for deep friendship connections. :)

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Of course you will offend someone if you try to be witty, I recently had a guy reject my application to work for him as a model, because he said he had read my posts here and thought I was rude. Rude? all I was trying to do was be witty.

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14 minutes ago, Talligurl said:

Of course you will offend someone if you try to be witty, I recently had a guy reject my application to work for him as a model, because he said he had read my posts here and thought I was rude. Rude? all I was trying to do was be witty.

Want me to set him on fire?

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Just now, Madelaine McMasters said:

Want me to set him on fire?

Well I would say yes, but I don't have the time right now to dig up the body. But thanks for the offer.

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9 hours ago, Arielle Simondsen said:

I like you.  You are like me in the sense that we've been through a ton of sh** but want to reach out to people to help them.  I dont really expect them to help me back though, cause no one ever really has, its always just me getting myself through everything.  But I dont want anyone else to feel like that so I try to help.  I even just recently created a womens center in sl to try and give back and help.  its brand new though, still adding things to it.

I too struggle with depression, anxieties of all sorts, always have had both, dealt with mental and emotional abuse, one guy hit me *once* I made sure it never happened again.

I keep myself to myself for the most part cause most people dont get me and many have strong reactions to me, not sure why.  lol  Im a scorpio rising and I read several times that it comes with that.  The darkness into phoenix over and over and over as a repeating cycle.  

ok babbling into nothingness now.  Nice to see someone who is absolutely themselves and is not afraid to put it out there.  I have a post on here too which says more about me.  anyway just reaching out.  I think we might be kindred in a lot of ways. :)  I think you might be the yin to my yang. :P  Im partnered for a long time now so not looking for that but I am down for deep friendship connections. :)

Thank you Arielle for the kind and true response.
  I work with an awareness group in Utherverse, this Second Life newly spawned creation that attaches to the real life NY proposals and all the work I'm doing to help the same sector.. I ran Physical Therapy and Counseling groups for recovering addicts and those suffering from diabetes, At least then I KNEW I was making a difference.. Since my illnesses got a bit more heavy and frightening, now I can barely leave my home.. As for my depression though, I never really expected help or advice. I've been ordered to therapy perhaps every year before I was 18 for my self-harm-- But that never did sh**. I went because I couldn't handle it hurting my parents with the suburban gossip and the courts threats against them. They're good people, out of all the abuse I have suffered-- Never was it from either one.
  See, It's difficult when you're talking to someone in the Depression group for an example, and they're upset for seeing a previous ex and they think their friends don't understand them.. Of course I can help talk that out but what I would give for something like that to be the reason I run to a support group. This person should have been grateful those people, her ex included were still alive to have been able to run into.. Or be grateful they didn't run into the man that raped them instead of the ex. Be grateful they have people they can pick up the phone and ask if they'll come over, not have to go visit at a cemetery instead.
More morbid and much more difficult sh** is why I started my group. It's needed.. people need to be able to talk about these things and get a response,
not stare at an empty screen..
 
I have no idea how to start new with new people.. It feels like they left and forgot to take me with them.
ugh, I do apologize, I've kept so much inside that it feels like my chest is compressed.
 
Thank you so much for the support and finding the connection [:
I'm very grateful,
Purz

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55 minutes ago, Talligurl said:

Of course you will offend someone if you try to be witty, I recently had a guy reject my application to work for him as a model, because he said he had read my posts here and thought I was rude. Rude? all I was trying to do was be witty.

Being witty is sometimes just a part of ones personality.. I find it enjoyable and attractive. The more possessing astuteness, the better. Anyone else claiming different, aren't very imaginative. (And, what is this guy doing looking into your posts? ...Sounds like a creep anyway)
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Im right there with you.  Ive been doing self harm for as long as I can remember.  Nowadays it only rears its ugly head when I am emotionally overwhelmed.  most people dont know.  But Ive spent so much time in my own darkness and know the way around so well, I try to use that to help other people get through their.  so many are afraid to face their own darkness, I feel like let me get a flashlight and I will give you the tour!  lol  I became a life coach for that reason, I can go in there and take people into their darkness and help them face it and either conquer it or begin to learn to work with it.  of course I always still struggle with my own and there are always those that say but arent you a coach?  shouldnt you be over all this?  it doesnt work that way, its a day to day thing.  no one gets over it or past it, its just like a long tunnel you have to go through.  I have my good days and bad days, some days I have to take an hour at a time or a minute at a time.  In a nutshell I was taken from my birthmother at a week old, put in foster homes, adopted by the time I was one, my adoptive mother who I was super close to got cancer when I was 4 and lost her battle to it when I was 21, I had an angry alcoholic verbally abusive father (more so after my mom had gone), and been dealing with verbal and emotional abuse as an adult, not to mention being bullied horribly as a child and having so called friends who tried to do that to me as an adult (I dont take that sh** now.)  I have no family, any rl friends are living far away and I dont talk to, but Im used to all that.  through sl I met my bestie and the soul who I have been the closest to since I lost my mom, but he too is on the other side of the world at the moment.  so, I just keep going forward as best as I can and try to do some good along the way. 

I am always my real self rl and sl cause Im terrible at being anything else :P  nice to meet you btw!!!  :)

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30 minutes ago, iPurz said:
And, what is this guy doing looking into your posts? 

He said he wanted to find people to model for him for some pictures because he wanted a more diverse set of ideas than he would have on his own, but then he is afraid to go with anyone who might argue with him over a fashion choice. Oh well, SL is a fantasy land, and if that is the fantasy he is looking for he is free to do that.

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3 minutes ago, Talligurl said:

He said he wanted to find people to model for him for some pictures because he wanted a more diverse set of ideas than he would have on his own, but then he is afraid to go with anyone who might argue with him over a fashion choice. Oh well, SL is a fantasy land, and if that is the fantasy he is looking for he is free to do that.

So, he basically wants diverse looking chicks.. However, is carrying the stigma and has the impression that "diversity" also means "bitchy" "out of line" "rude" "anarchists" "witches"... although most of the stigma's *may be true to a degree-- that's no reason to not give you an assignment, a professional document with duties AND especially a morals clause which would help him avoid trolling potential girls to work with.. I'd love to bag the creep.
 
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